我的地盘

无聊至极之乱写篇之-- 空

我的钱包很空，因为没有钱；

我的口袋很空，因为没有钱；

我的银行户头很空，因为没有钱；

我的家很空，因为没有钱。

我的心很空，因为没有你；

我的脑袋很空，因为没有你；

我的梦很空，因为没有你；

我的家很空，因为没有你。

我很空，因为没有钱，也没有你。

好喜欢他

好喜欢他的声音，时而沉稳，时而轻盈，让人捉摸不定、措手不及。

好喜欢他说话的语调，很快、很快，让人觉得他永远在赶时间。

好喜欢他说的道理，头头是道，感人肺腑，让人永记心中。

好喜欢他微笑的模样，成熟的脸庞，孩子气的笑容，让人神魂颠倒。

好喜欢他的一举一动，稀奇古怪，生动有趣，让人打从心底笑出来。

好喜欢他开的玩笑，幽默风趣，调皮可爱，让人破涕为笑。

好喜欢他说的“太好了”，听似高声喝彩，雀跃万分，让人也想跟他起舞。

好喜欢他念“tze chan"这两个字，念起来怪怪的，让人很想笑，又很开心。

好喜欢跟他通电话，背景总是很吵，总是听不太清楚，却让人心跳一百。

好喜欢他不停的说“对不起” ，让人心疼、心碎，只想紧紧的抱着他。

好喜欢他让我中毒的样子，无法自拔，越陷越深, 虽然到最后，都只是我一厢情愿。

因为我真的-------好.喜.欢.他

人生的兴衰荣辱、用舍行藏，都是点滴在心的滋味。

处世的尔虞我诈、欲擒故纵，都是妙不可言的艺术。

                                                                     -----刘墉 。<<点滴在心的处世艺术>>

我想我终於明白

今天从一个朋友那里听来的一个消息，一个你的近况，一个让我”震惊”(与其说是“震惊”，不如说是“又惊又喜”)的事情。

去年九月，当你亲自告诉我你要辞职的消息，我的反应和大家一样，就是像你所说的”全世界都认为你疯了“。如果不是读着你发的电邮，如果没有跟你通过电话，我一定觉得这不是真的，你不是真的要放弃这么一个超”炫“的职业。是的，当时我觉得你疯了，我的那通电话，其实是想挽留你。可是你去意已决，从电话那头听到你愉快的语调，我把挽留的话打住了，因为我实在不忍心泼你冷水。就这样，从那时开始到一段说长不长，说短不短的时间，我没有真心祝福你。我那通电话最后的那句”祝你好运”不是真心的，我承认。

我一直对你现在从事的行业有偏见。我觉得在这个行业出头的人不多，而那些没出头的，还一直睁着眼睛说瞎话。。。总之是一个不切实的行业、梦想。我好几次在电邮里问你，你这个行业真的可以为你带来很多金钱吗？你说，这个行业能给你的钱，是远远胜于你旧东家可以给你的。你没告诉我你现在可以赚多少钱，我也没问，可是我不相信你所说的，我承认。过后，你说：“我目前的成功。是以我有能力帮助过多少人，甚至是改变了多少人来衡量，而不是纯粹像其他人一样，总是以每月收入多少来计算。” 这时候，我更一口咬定你其实是失败了，那些只是你爱面子安慰自己的理由。

我对你的怀疑一直存在着，直到不久前，你买了一辆豪华房车，我才渐渐的相信你是可以的，你没有骗我。然后今天接到这个消息，我下巴都快掉了下来，眼镜也差点跌破了。我想我真的明白了，为什么当初你会坚持你那XXL的梦想，“我行我素”的辞职去。我现在心里只有彻彻底底的佩服，佩服你勇敢的决定，让你绘出真正属於你自己的一道彩虹。走过了一场病痛，徘徊过生死关头，这次你真的苦尽甘来了。恭喜你，也祝福你，这次是出於真心的了。同时也想跟你说对不起，对不起，我之前怀疑你。

我之前还满怀希望，希望你会重操旧业，希望你总有一天会回到你以前的行业去。可是现在我觉得那是不可能的了。但纵使如此，也没有遗憾了。毕竟谁会抗拒，抗拒一个每个月最低(注意：是最低！)收入RM50K的职业呢？这个我想，大家都没有异议了吧？

给自己的，短短的，一篇省思。。。

以下这则故事，是从佳铃(谢谢你啊！感恩！感恩！)转发给我的电邮中转贴过来的。

A girl in love asked her boyfriend..

Girl   (g): Tell me... who do you love most in this world?
Boy  (b): You, of course!
        (g): In your heart, what am I to you?
        (b): The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and
              said, "You are my rib. In the Quran, it was said that God saw that Adam was lonely, during his sleep; God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life; you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your
heart."

 After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a
while. However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life and the never-ending worries of daily problems....their
life became mundane....
All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other... The couple began to have
more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated..
One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house.... At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!" The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"                                                             Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while.... He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water,
you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things
and was determined in breaking-up.
Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go.....She continued, "It is less painful this way... let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners..."

Five years went by....

He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly...... She had left the country and back.... She had  married a foreigner and divorced..... He felt anguished that she never waited for him. In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missingher..

One day, they finally met.... At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good-byes.... He was going away on a business trip. She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them.
She smiled at him gently.
(b): How are you?                                                                                      (g): I'm fine. How about you... Have you found your missing rib?
(b): No.
(g): I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.
(b): I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back...You know my number... Nothing has changed.

With a smile, she turned around and waved good-bye..

Good-bye.....

One week later, he heard of her death. She had perished in New York. In the event that shocked the world..
Midnight..... Once again, he lit his cigarette.....
And like Before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart.... He finally knew, she was the missing rib that he had carelessly broken....

Sometimes, people say things out of moments of fury..... Most often than not, the outcome could be disastrous and detrimental....We vent our frustrations 99% at our loved ones.... And even though we know that we ought to "think twice and act wisely", it's often easier said than done. Things happen each day, many of which are beyond our control....Let us treasure every moment and everyone in our lives....Tomorrow may never come; give and accept what you have today.

一口气看完了，我有一种被当头棒喝的感觉。令我感动而有所领悟的不是这爱情故事，而是故事最后一段指我们往往把生活上的不满及怨气都发泄在自己所爱的(我觉得应该说是爱我们的)人身上而不自知。可不是吗？想想我自己时常用不耐烦的语气来回应父母对我的关心(或担心)。。。“哎哟，年轻人就是这样的啦，其他人也是这样，你们做么想酱多？” 对於父母亲的善意安排，我往往会这样回应：“唉！我自己的事我自己处理啦！我自己有分寸的啦！” 或者：“做么要酱麻烦的？” 又或者：“老土到要死，同学会笑死啦，我才不要！” 或走到饭厅，看到妈妈刚煮好的菜肴，就问：“今天就吃这些啊？做么是这些菜，我都不喜欢吃的。。。(然后还皱眉头)”。。。其实还有很多，太多太多了，根本无法一一例出来。我的脾气快来快去，往往会让我在快人快语中伤害了父母亲的心，然后就在话说出口的数秒钟内后悔不已。可是一言既出，驷马难追，特别是伤害别人的话，说了出来，就会造成极大的伤害。我一直在想，为什么我可以对一个跟我无关痛痒(或没什么交情) 的人如此的客气，如此宽宏大量；却对养我、育我的父母亲如此无礼、霸道。今天有这么一个机缘看到这篇文章，是个很好的省思，希望下次跟父母说话时，我会是一个懂事的孩子。愿与大家共勉之。